Baby is 9 wks old, been pumping since day 3. She lost 12% at hospital, so I was advised to begin pumping. Went to LC and she sent me to tongue tie doctor and cranio sacral therapist. I can't tell if that has helped because [I]every[I] time I nurse her she jumps around and tries to tear my nipple off. I believe it is because the gas just bothers her so much.She does this with the bottle also.She struggles with passing gas almost the entire day-24 hr period.She cries and arches backwards.I try to pump every 3 hrs, but it is hard to stick to the schedule because I have no help and she is upset most of the time, so I can't just let her scream her head off.I mean, I have, but feel guilty about it.I have rented a gram scale from the LC to do a before and after and she does okay on one breast, but the other, not so well.But, maybe if she was starving, she maybe would have worked at it.I get like 2-3 hrs of sleep in a 24hr period.I feel so exhausted and depressed.This isn't fostering a close relationship,feels like a chore; I feel resentful,feel guilty,feel regretful, feel angry.I have an 8yr old and catch myself lashing out at him because I feel at wits end.Breast milk is the best thing for the baby, but I don't know if me feeling as I do all that great for her either.I have a Symphony and get 4-5oz at a time, so there is no lack of milk.I actually have surplus in fridge and started to freeze.I want to be close to my baby and be able to comfort her, but pumping is not letting me.It is sad when she tries so hard to get to my breast when she's crying, turning, twisting towards it. I don't put her there much at all, but she knows exactly where they are. Any help/advice will be greatly appreciated.