Hi all, thanks for taking the time to read my post! I'm going to give a very brief background and need some honest advice. I
have a 5mo baby girl who was breastfed for 5 weeks - on the breast but mainly pumped.
I had a HORRIBLE c-section which I now know was totally unnecessary, (induced at 41 wks, given 6 hours to labor on pitocin, was only "3" and there was meconium so they "had" to section us! GRRRR!)
Needless to say, BF had a bumpy start I was in horrible pain the entire time! Baby had thrush for 4 weeks, didn't even know what that was, engorged daily, fevers daily, cracked sore bleeding nipples, even while pumping! Latch wasn't good went to two LC paid lots of $$$ and no fix! They both called her a "barracuda". Anyways, I stopped due to pressure from family members, severe pain, I couldn't see the "light" you know.
I DEEPLY regret the decision I have made daily and cannot get over the fact that BF didn't work out for us. This was the ONLY way I planned to nourish my baby and I failed! She's currently doing great on formula - zero issues but I want to try it again. Am I nuts? Is the jig up? Will I mess her up by imposing this on her? Everyone thinks I am out of my mind but I can't help the way I feel. She refuses my breast! What should I do? I am still able to squeeze a few drops daily despite the fact and I am on bc, drink loads of coffee, barely drink water, and dieting. HELP!