Re: pumping & not keeping up
I'm sorry you're having such a tough time, Mama! In you shoes, I think I'd want to see a lactation consultant, preferably an IBCLC, for hands-on help. Maybe she can help you get your LO to nurse exclusively- and then you can put the pump on the shelf and things should be easy.
The best way to increase supply is to have a baby who nurses well. If you don't have that, you want to pump frequently using a really good pump (I'm talking hospital-grade rental or good double electric). You can throw in herbs (fenugreek, blessed thistle, oatmeal) and/or drugs (Reglan or Domperidone) for good measure, but you should use them consistently, for a period of days or weeks, and should not expect them to provide a substitute for work with the pump. They can help, though! The drugs in particular, though the herbs can certainly be useful as well.
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