*Sigh* Jane is my first baby and she was born 6 weeks ago (tomorrow), 18 days early. I've been breastfeeding her since the first hour she came out of me. During her first week of life we had to supplement with some formula as she was very jaundiced and our pediatrician wanted to avoid admitting her back into the hospital to go under the lights.
Since then she has been EBF. Her output has always been good, typically exceeding the wet/soiled diaper output suggested in the books. She was back to her birthweight by her 2 week appointment.
I should mention that I don't love breastfeeding. Sometimes it hurts, sometimes I get engorged and some days (like yesterday) all this child wants to do is nurse. I can't get anything done and it makes me even more sore. (But strangely, today my nipples feel fine) Anyway, I'm at best pretty ambivalent about breastfeeding and sometimes I downright hate it. I hate it on days like yesterday where the only thing that will keep her from screaming is being at the breast. I want to give up and give her formula as it would be so much easier. So far, I haven't done that. Although last night my DH thawed some frozen breastmilk and gave it to her in a bottle to give me a break. It was heaven. I also really don't like that I can't be away from her for more than an hour, max, because she may need to nurse. Not that I want to be away from her, but I would like to get a haircut or get a pedicure or just go to the grocery store. Anyway, enough rambling.
1) Starting a couple of days ago, her stools got darker and had some black specks in them. Same number of stools per day and same consistency, just a different color. Other than being a fussy little girl yesterday, her personality/attitude hasn't changed and she doesn't appear feverish or anything like that. I also haven't changed my diet since I started BF'ing. Does this seem like a problem?
2) Occasionally when she is nursing, she will spit up and it will come out her nose (that alone doesn't really concern me) and then she will start choking. The choking freaks me out. I've started trying to feed her more inclined sometimes. This spitting up/choking started last Friday and happened twice that day where she choked pretty bad and once yesterday to a lesser degree. She always clears her throat/nasal passages herself once I get her upright. Should I be concerned?
3) I'm still setting an alarm for every 3-4 hours at night to feed her. Sometimes she wakes me up before the alarm, sometimes she's still sleeping when the alarm goes off. When can I just relax and wait for her to get hungry and wake me up?
That's about it. If anyone managed to get through all of this I really, really appreciate it. I'm just finding BF'ing to be very constraining. I adore my daughter and want to do what's best for her, but I'm having a tough time with this.