Re: How can I get LO to BF again??
I'm sorry things took a wrong turn along the way. You had a lot of balls up in the air, and when that happens it's common for something to drop.
You say your LO gets upset whenever she sees the Boppy. What would happen if you just ditched it? Trying a new nursing position might help break the unpleasant associations for both of you. I'm thinking you might want to try nursing side-lying, cuddling in a warm bed, or perhaps in a warm bath. When mama and baby are relaxed and warm and the breast is right there... Who knows what could happen?
I'd also suggest trying some instant reward techniques. A baby who is used to the bottle can become unwilling to work for a good letdown. If you pump for a little bit before putting her to the breast, you might cut the time to letdown and thereby encourage her to nurse. Expressing or dripping some milk onto the breast may also help: if she tastes milk right away, she may be more inclined to suck.
I can understand your frustration with this situation. One thing that may help with that is to offer a paci or pinky finger for the baby to suck on when you're struggling to get her latched. A moment of silence can go a long way to restoring your patience!
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