Re: Relacting after 10 1/2 months
Mama, don't be too hard on yourself. Breastfeeding is natural, but that doesn't make it easy. And pumping- forget about it, hooking yourself up to a machine isn't even natural!
It's not at all strange to want to have another baby. We all make mistakes with our kids, and wish that we could somehow fix them. Having another baby means getting another chance at success. I hope that you do get the chance to make things work, when you're ready! And we'll be here to help you when you do.
Just 2 things I want to address:
Eating poorly doesn't cause gestational diabetes. There are women who eat nothing but ice cream and cookies and have totally even blood sugar, and there are others who can't even look at a piece of whole-grain bread without having their blood sugar go haywire.
I just turned 30 and escaped gestational diabetes by a hair(failed my first test; starved myself to pass the other..barely). I know I ate wrong..I just know it.
Failing the first test means NOTHING. The first test is a screening test. It's designed to catch not only all the women who do have a problem controlling their blood sugar, but also every single woman who might have a problem. About 75% of women who "fail" the first test go on to "pass" the second. The second test, the 3 hour test- that's the diagnostic test. And again, it's not perfectly accurate either! Many women who "fail" the 3 hour test will have normal blood sugar (normoglycemia) throughout pregnancy even if they do nothing, and many others will maintain normoglycemia provided that they eat a reasonable diet (i.e. not 100 mg of pure sugar on an empty stomach) and get some exercise.
Actually, you can release oxytocin without really feeling those lovey, mushy feelings. And if oxytocin production is a problem for you, I have read that you can get an oxytocin nasal spray that can assist the relactation process.
I feel deep down that what's gonna hold me back is the hormones..oxytocin is what releases the milk right? Well if so I don't see how I can increase that because I don't get that feeling that I got when I was nursing.
Coolest thing my big girl said recently: "How can you tell the world is moving when you are standing on it?"
Coolest thing my little girl sang recently: "I love dat one-two pupples!"