@jordanna. I didn't want to be explicit, but she was the LC I contacted. My insurance covers half, but I really can't afford it upfront. I emptied my personal account for the first one, and I don't want to ask my parents for more money as they are already doing so much for me.
But thanks for your sweet words. I really hope we can both get through this :gvibes
@both jodanna and norasmom- I think it's interesting that I get responses after coming home today feeling depressed about it. Gives me hope. I won't even go to any of the cool mom groups around here because I don't want anyone to see me use a bottle, even if it is breastmilk. Everyone here is super into bfing and cloth diapers and stuff and I don't want to get labelled.
The good news is that he spent some time at the breast- maybe 5 sucks tops? in the laid back position in the tub. And I will be going to a "support group" at a Health Center (though I was told by the LC there I'd probably be the only one there! So free help!). And the hospital grade pump is on its way.
Just in case, I did make an appt at the Jack Newman Institute in Toronto. I'll be home in Buffalo for spring break, so it's just a couple hours away. This is becoming an international affair! :rolleyes:
Thanks for posting right when I needed it.
Sorry for bumping up a page 4 thread, but I thought I would update.
I got a prescription for Reglan and started that on Tuesday. I've been taking Goat's Rue for about a week. But I'm still pumping the same amount. I have the Motherlove Special Blend coming in the mail.
My little boy no longer screams near my breasts, but he doesn't do much else either. I did some position work with an LC, but nothing. Like in the other thread I'm considering craniosacral therapy, but only if health insurance covers it.
I went to an LLL meeting and she was helping me deal with my feelings. I almost wonder if I should stop hurting myself and be at peace. I'm really sick of being SO DEPRESSED.
I wish I had answers. Or knew what was the matter. I feel so guilty for having such a sad pregnancy. Even his conception was sad. Now I wonder if any of those things are affecting him. The fact that I spent much of my pregnancy crying because I didn't know what to do.
If I knew he would go back on eventually, I wouldn't stop trying. But now the trying is hurting alot inside and I'm not sure how healthy it is to be constantly anxious about this.
*** Sorry I was so sad and depressed. . .I do have some fabulous news! We tried the SNS again last night in the tub, and he nursed! He took about 2 ounces in all so I could tell it was working. Then today he did it again! It all started when I started feeding him in a more snuggly position than advised for bottles. I'm very happy. At the same time, I enjoyed it so that if it happens to be the last time, I don't have a bad memory of it. I also pumped 8 oz yesterday! Idk if I'll do it again today. But there is hope.***
I was wondering how are you doing and if you were able to find a solution to your problem. I am going thriough the same thing and was hoping to get help or any suggestions you may have that worked for you. I am desparate to bf my son, be he doesn't latch...
I did not end up nursing full time- however, I did manage to nurse a few times a week until he had too many teeth and it was just too painful as he doesn't really remember. I still try and slip it in, but I am coming to terms with that. HOWEVER, I did manage to bring up my supply to fully pump what he needs every single day. We have been formula free for at least 3 months, maybe more. I got a hosptital grade pump, a prescription for domperidone, and used every opportunity I could to pump for just a few minutes. Occasionally I would watch a movie with my guy friend and pump for an hour (not often!!!). Determination is most important- you can do this!!! For the baby, warm baths with him helped alot. I also had a special situation because I am a single student mom and I was by myself in Chicago. I could only do so much. I hope you have gotten some good responses on your thread, and I sure hope this isn't too late!!!! Make a thread :) we will help you. <3 kait
you pumped in front of your guy friend? is he awesome or what?!?!