I had no clue what to title this. I'm really getting frustrated with bfing. Gracie is three months old, I've been back to work since she was 6 weeks old and am just feeling ready to give up. It seems like no one is supportive of this. My sitter is not cooperating and I've been very concerned about a lot of the things she's doing. There were two times this week when I picked dd and ds up and she told me that dd wouldn't take a bottle of ebm and she almost just gave her a bottle of formula. Now, dd has three nine ounce bottles of fresh bm and a bag of frozen, just in case. So, we're not having supply issues. Well, I had dh give dd a bottle at night, just to see how it went and it was fine, so yesterday I made time to be sure I could ask questions, turns out sitter is propping bottle on a pillow with dd in carseat and expecting her to eat that way. Dd is ticked and of course won't, she's used to being held. I think I need a new sitter and am feeling the pressure of having to find one.
Not only that but dh is currently unemployed and not being quite the husband I wish he would be and when I sit down to nurse he sits down too. So, I get home from work and sit down to nurse the screaming infant, only to find him flopped down next to me. No dinner, no playing with ds, no dishes, or prep for tomorrow, he's just taking it easy. Nursing takes up so much time!!!
Then at work, it's my busy time and I'm trying so hard to catch up and keep up and be successful, particularly since I had to take six weeks off for dd and taking the twenty minutes a pop twice a day to pump is killing me! I need to then work late to compensate for the time it takes to pump and I'm just getting so fed up!
Maybe I just needed to tell someone all of that