Today, 04:45 AM
Try remembering that at the end of the day, extended or "full term" breastfeeding, whether that be for one year or four years or the 18 months you have mentioned, is really about responsive parenting-- being present, and aware, and responsive to your child's needs, seeing them as a valuable being with the ability to know what they and their body need and the ability to communicate those needs to their caregiver and have their caregiver respond appropriately and with love. And those needs change over time, and are going to vary by child.
I think so long as you are you address the variables that are under your control-- the variables that are for the most part highly influenced by our cultural positioning-- then after that, then success really is letting your little one take the lead on this. Yes, we often hear numbers thrown out about what the average self-weaning age is, but whatever numbers those are, there are most certainly going to be kiddos on either end of the bell curve, a standard deviation or so out.
You are not a failure, mama, and neither is your son. Stress is not helping this situation. The biggest hope I have for you is that perhaps you can find a local La Leche group to attend? Not only will there be nurslings of every age, but there will also be mamas who's previous babe's have weaned, and will be able to talk about what that process looked like for them, etc, and most of all, there will be moms there who KNOW what it is to care about this relationship...