Yesterday, 06:37 PM
There are other posters that will be probably better than I, far more knowledgeable, that will chime in for help regarding how to deal with the supplementing, what I wanted to say that the first three to four months were the biggest personal challenge that I have gone through. 8 week in is still very early in the breastfeeding journey. You are not alone. You are not a failure by any means, your love and devotion for your son is admirable. Formula is not the devil. DO what you can for your supply but cease the obsession. Have you spent any time doing anything for yourself, even for an hour or two since the baby was born? A Pedicure, a book, a coffee out n about, exercise? Emotionally if you can give your mind a break you will feel better, even if you are still fatigued, just concentrating on something else can help.
New moms have this pressure to be a perfect mom. Just because you have supplemented doesn't make you a flawed mom, not one bit. Let go of the beginning, it drags you down. Look toward the future and stay positive :love You can do it! And when you are feeding your son, take the moments to enjoy it rather than fret. Fret after the feeding during nap time ;)
A couple of questions-- are you feeding baby mainly only from pumped milk? A baby removes milk more efficiently from the breast than a pump so your baby is likely to be getting more from your breast than you realize. If he is being bottle fed, are you doing paced bottle feeding? Babies...