Yesterday, 11:07 PM
I am not an expert, I'm here seeking help myself, but thought I'd mention a few things I have learned, to at least give some reply.
First off, I sympathize with your situation and how you're feeling. My situation is different, and yet it's not - our desire to breastfeed and feeling we've made a mess of things, we have that in common. And the breast refusal of course.
Anyway, my understanding is that once your period is back, no amount of nursing/pumping can mess it up or make it go away again. So pumping wouldn't cause any problems in that respect.
Also, if you have smaller nipples it's quite possible you'd respond better to the pump if you used smaller flanges - medela has smaller and larger flanges available for their pumps.
Also, power pumping will produce better results in boosting your supply, but I did that very often, not just once a day like I read to do. That and fenugreek worked great for me.
I think all is not lost, there is always hope, but that you need to get your supply up again which ever way possible, if you want your nursing relationshiop back.